From Paige's blog

This was Paige's blog entry today...she is a girl who has it figured out.

"These are the days of our lives"

I hear this all the time, then I stop and think..are these really the days of our lives?
The fighting with our “best friends.”
The constant need and want to “fit in.”
The worrying and anxiety that comes from not sticking to the “normal.”
The crying over a “love” that lasted for a week?
The battle you have with yourself because you aren’t “good enough.”
Or are the days of our lives this?
Being your true self with the people around you.
Experiencing unconditional love from your family.
Being successful and enjoying what you do.
Not focusing on the negative.
Being able to look at yourself and like it.
Bottom Line:
High School is not and never will be “the days of our lives.”
There is so much more that lies beyond those doors. :)

I opened my phone and saw this text and it brought tears to my eyes

"I love you forever, I like for always...as long as I'm living my mommy hero best friend you'll be"

but wait.

My mind never stops. They say "a woman is like a river, the past, present, and future all flow together"..this does not help my thought process.

I laid in bed this morning thinking.....

1. I need to scrapbook..wait, I need to get the pictures organized and off the 3 different camera cards I have.

2. I want a coffee..wait, I am not supposed to be drinking coffee.

3. I need to workout..wait, I don't want to work out

4. I miss Paige..wait, this will be a good thing for her...but wait..why didn't her choir director in Powell ever return any of her calls or texts?

5. Mia has been back to sleeping with me since Paige left...wait, didn't I say the other day they grow so fast?

6. Kain finally got a hair cut...wait, I should have documented that.

7. It's official, Carter is taller than my dad...wait, this would explain his midnight feedings (no lie, he can't sleep because he is so hungry)

8. I have so many things to do this week to get ready for our vacation to Idaho..but wait, I am pretty tired. I will lay here longer

9. I want to blog more, but I never have pictures to go with what I am talking about because I am too unorganized..wait, that isn't going to change.

10. I am still blessed...and my mind didn't say "but wait"

Well then

I wonder why I can't seem to get on here and write anything down..I have so many things to say..but three months go by? Crazy.

Kain just celebrated his 10th birthday and had a wonderful party with his friends. The kids and I built a fire pit. It was a huge sucIess at the party with smores and hotdogs being the menu :) We have had a trip to New York, basketball camps, football camps, basketball tournaments and baseball..girl scout activities, trips to yellowtail, playdates, sleepovers, and so much more. Summer it is an amazing thing..freedom, fun, laughter..I know the kids can't believe it is half over..I can't either. I am not ready. I don't want them to go back to school, when I see school supplies..my heart hurts.

My new decision..to live in the moment..to really enjoy each precious moment. You blink and a week, a month (or three until I blog again..ha) and years pass by. I always thought that my parents were nuts I would hear them say "where did the time go" "it goes so fast, just yesterday you were in my arms". I now understand..because just yesterday my kids were babies. Now I have one who is considering school in another state..a teenage boy who is taller than me..a 10 year old who makes me laugh every single day..and a sweet 7 year old who is about to be eight.

I spend way too many hours dwelling on the past, or worrying about things in the future..when the truth is..I have to take the time to enjoy the NOW..the moments, I can't get back. There are so many that I have to be thankful for. The kids and I went mini golfing on Kain's birthday..it sprinkled on us, we laughed..we danced...we sang..we took pictures..I am blessed daily by my children. My precious gifts from the Lord, that he has given me the responsibility of raising into adults. They are funny, kind, talented, amazing and loved beyond measure by me. :) What else really matters?